The truth about pain

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Pain is dreadful. Physical or emotional pain is equally unwelcome in our lives. We are willing to go many extra miles in order to avoid pain. Sometimes, we venture out too far.

Instead of dealing with the root of pain, which often is a matter more complicated than we are willing to tackle, we go after quick fixes – addictions and other sorts of unhelpful tricks, just to numb the pain.

But does it need to be numbed?

Dealing with a trivial but very painful and lengthy sickness sent me on a search for pain relief that could be a strong enough alternative to prescription pain medications. I stumbled on a medical article that addressed patients with chronic pain. It suggested that when pain medication ceased to help, the patients had to change their view of pain. I almost laughed at the ridiculousness of this . Obviously, I thought, whoever wrote this had never dealt with the kind of pain that felt like someone was kicking your exposed nerves with a steel toed boot.

The pain got unbearable in the evenings. It made me feel isolated and desperate. There was no way I could view this situation in any other way but awful.

As I got better, however, I found myself one day missing the pain. After the initial impulse of checking myself into a mental health facility, I started to analyze this feeling. I discovered that the excruciating pain removed everything in the space between me and God. In fact, it shrunk the space between me and God and brought me to closeness and dependency on Him, like I had not felt before.

“Hear me as I pray, O Lord . Be merciful and answer me! My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.” And my heart responds, “ Lord , I am coming.”
Psalms 27:7‭-‬8

This intimacy between the Father and us only occurs under extreme circumstances, when we have nothing and realize that He is our everything.

We were created with the ability to feel pain for a reason. Once we were expelled from the safety of the Garden, God activated the protective mechanism of pain as a call button to get our attention, to summon us when He needs it…when we need Him.

I am happy not to be in pain. I hope to never experience this kind of pain again. My view of it however, has changed ..I have discovered its value, something to help me next time to be patient and trusting of the work He is doing in me.

Activate the breakthrough: The Backgammon Strategy

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Nobody likes to wait. Waiting for a breakthrough can make you more miserable than the challenge itself. You have prayed, you have asked, you have knocked…You know all about waiting on God. You know that going through a trial works out perfection in you. In the process of waiting you either hibernate in a survival mode until heavens open and something happens; or torment yourself with gnawing thoughts of what else can be done that you have not tried.

Is it all up to God? Is there anything you can do to while waiting?

Looking at the past breakthroughs in my life, the testimonies of people around me and the stories in the Scripture, it appears there is a strategy that helps to activate the breakthrough.

I call it the backgammon strategy.

Backgammon is one of the oldest board games known, invented in Persia sometime around 3000 BC. It can be played on a cardboard with plastic checkers and dice or a mother-of-pearl encrusted wood with checkers of ivory or semi-precious stones.

Whatever the setting – the rules are the same. Each of the two players gets 15 checkers which move between spaces according to the roll of 2 dice. The person, who moves all the checkers off the board first, wins.

My husband has accused me of casting a spell on the dice which, in his view, rolled in my favor and caused me to win every time. In truth, my wins were based on strategic moves I had learned playing with my uncle as a child.

Backgammon victory/Breakthrough is part strategy (your part) and part favor (God’s part). With each roll of the dice, players must choose the optimal move from numerous options and anticipate possible counter-moves by the opponent (Devil’s part). The better a player is at choosing the right step at any given roll of dice, the greater is the chance for victory.

Ultimately it is God who brings the breakthrough. His timing is as exquisitely perfect as it is unknown to us. The Devil’s moves are fairly predictable – he strikes our weakest spots. Each day, however, brings us opportunities to choose to make the right step (however small) – draw close to Him, even if you feel distant; praise Him, even if you feel angry; invest in someone else’s life, even when your own is falling apart.

His Word is full of divine strategies for every situation and if we apply them consistently in small steps they activate the big breakthrough.

A dear friend was diagnosed with advanced breast cancer. Her doctor recommended immediate surgery. She insisted on postponing the surgery until the return from her mission trip to China, the first mission trip for which she had been preparing for several months. The doctor, her family and friends weren’t pleased. Her condition and the advanced age made them certain that she was making a mistake. Her strategy was to put God first. She knew it was Him who called her. She knew that He was aware of her cancer before the doctor was. So, she made her strategic move – she followed God’s call andwent to China.

When she returned the tests showed that there was no signs of cancer in her body.

C.S. Lewis once said “The smallest good act today is the capture of a strategic point from which…you may be able to go on to victories you never dreamed of.”

I wonder if he played backgammon?

Travel of passion and purpose: Why must we go?

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I am frequently asked: “Why does one need to travel across the world when there are people in our own communities who need Jesus?”

“Wise man travels to discover himself” said a poet over a hundred years ago.

This thought drives into the travel aspect of the Great Commission. By sending us to the “uttermost” parts of the earth to preach the Good News, Christ was not just recruiting helpers to save the world but was releasing us on an adventure – the discovery of His fullness and the untapped potential within ourselves.

Traveling to a destination determined by you is exciting, going on an assignment from God is life-altering. Every aspect of the journey becomes filled with significance that may not always be tangible and visible, but connects you with the realm of eternity.

Not many Americans traveled to the Soviet Union in 1984. This was the year Soviet Union boycotted the Olympics in Los Angeles and the Cold War seemed to reach a new level. But a couple, whose identity will remain a mystery for a time, traveled to Moscow with Gospel tracts in their luggage. Miraculously they were able to get them through customs, and passed them out in the streets. One tract found its way to a 14-year old girl.

Though she had heard of Christ as a historic figure in school, she was astounded by the simple message of great love. For God so loved the world… God loved her. He sacrificed His son for her. Her heart responded to the invitation in the tract. She read out loud the prayer outline, grateful for it being there because she did not know how to pray. In the heart of a Communist country a teenage girl was saved because of someone’s obedience.

An assignment from God will never fit the structured box of our natural abilities. It is purposed to break us out of the comfort zone and therefore starts with the humbling awareness of our own inadequacy. Fears, indecisiveness, lack of experience, time, money or self-confidence create a gap between us and our destiny in Christ. Only blind faith and unconditional obedience can bridge this gap. Crossing this bridge is a part of the journey that equips us for the challenges ahead.

The teenage girl grew up. While in college she met an American pastor who was called to Russia as a missionary in the early 90s. Their romance developed as the Soviet Union was crumbling. One of their dates took place during the Russian Coup of 1993 when the Communist Parliament members occupied the White House. The young man saved her life when she was accidentally caught in a crossfire. Soon after they were married.

She had a degree in electronics engineering technology and Jesus in her heart, her husband was fresh out of Bible College – not much to prepare them for ministry in a torn apart nation. God rarely choses the qualified, He qualifies those He calls.

They planned to stay in Russia forever, evangelizing the newly free post-Soviet Republics. But their ministry grew and expanded into 20 nations – Communist countries, Muslim countries, war zones, earth quake areas and even to the official “end of the earth”.

Weather they were delivering medical supplies to the hospitals in Baghdad, helping victims of the earthquake in China and Nepal, breaking down intellectual barriers in France or distributing food to the refugees in Kurdistan, she always remembered the couple whose obedience gave her a chance to accept Jesus.

The couple also opened their outreaches to thousands of Christians in the US and Canada who joined their teams to fulfill their own calling in the Great Commission. They watched people from young children to 90 plus year old seniors answer that same stirring that God once placed in their hearts. They knew from their own lives that God will use anybody who is willing to say “here I am, use me”. They felt that the power of a personal testimony of a saved man or woman could reach the hardest of the hearts and they encouraged their team members to do so, regardless of their past, education, experience or the lack of thereof.

On a snowy day in Russia, a new team member, Alexander, pulled the couple aside before the service. He severely stuttered as he spoke. He told the couple that he wasn’t sure why he came to Russia other except that he had felt a very strong nudge from God. Because of his speech impediment he couldn’t share any testimonies but he would pray. They could tell he was quite shaken and prayed for him.

The evangelistic service was held in an old movie theatre. The heat wasn’t working and everyone was bundled up in warm coats and big furry hats and you could see people’s breath rising from their lips. But the theatre was packed. The Russian people came to hear the Gospel after being forbidden to believe for over 70 years.

As the school teachers and doctors, hair dressers and mechanics shared their stories of God’s power working in their lives, the room was warming up with excitement and cheers. A preacher was getting ready to deliver an evangelistic sermon, but suddenly Alexander asked to speak.

He had been an alcoholic who caused a drunk driving accident. His wife and son died in that accident. The tragedy led him to Christ and his life was changed but the guilt and the shame of his past had a powerful hold on him. As he spoke tears streamed down his cheeks and the crowd wept with him. Alcohol abuse had been a great tragedy for many Russian people and many in the audience related to his story. Strangely, the more he spoke, the less he stuttered. At the end of his story his voice became strong and fluid and he invited those who wanted to be delivered from their addictions and strongholds to come forward and accept the saving grace of Jesus Christ. The entire movie theatre rose to their feet. The other team members lined up in front of the stage to pray with the new converts, yet others where opening the boxes with New Testament Bibles to hand them out to everyone who was willing to take one.

Alexander lost his stuttering in that service, along with the guilt and shame of his past. Hundreds of Russian people found Jesus and freedom in Him.

I will forever be grateful to the American couple who traveled to the Soviet Union in 1984 and changed my life forever.

One day I will be able to come up to them in Heaven and tell them: “Thank you for obeying the Lord. I am a life that was saved through your courage and obedience.

I look forward to meeting in heaven people from the world’s “hot spots” who gained eternity with Jesus through our ministry World Missions Alliance and millions of Bibles we distributed in these countries. But it all goes back to the Gospel tract in Moscow in 1984 and someone willing to travel.

The call to the “uttermost parts of the earth” moves us to the next step in our walk with God. Chuck Todd, my husband, co-founder and president of World Missions Alliance says a mission trip is a date with God. Traveling outside of your comfort zone, to the place of unfamiliar culture and language brings you to the place of vulnerability and intimacy with God equal to the one that inspired King David’s psalms.

It is essential for every Christian to experience and this is why, even though there are always people at arms-reach needing Jesus, we go when God invites us. Who would turn down an invitation to a date with God?

It begins with a stirring of the spirit, a sensation, a feeling that starts small but eventually becomes overwhelming. Stirring of the spirit can be ignored, suppressed but it cannot be quenched. It defies logic, it contradicts the desires of our flesh. It eventually becomes a nuisance until you are willing to obey.

As you sit on the plane and turn off the cell phone before the take-off you step into the new chapter of your life. It will not be the same when you return. You will not be the same.

Each one of us is unique in destiny but we have common needs as the same species of God’s creation. We are fueled by passion and driven by purpose. Without either life dwindles into a meaningless existence.

A journey outside the comfort zone on an assignment from God leads to both. It is worth the investment of time, finances and efforts because nothing else can give you a more fulfilling return.

Are you ready?